disappointment

i msg with my frenz.. that hav for abt 15 years frenship.. i told her abt something that i knew.. she refuse to trust butt said that she is innocent.. .. she chose to trust her frenz... this hurt me so much ... da guy had even admitted to me. this damn hurt.. as i lied by ppl .. then now.. frenz choose to trust others but nott me... sigh...my frenz.. i beg u .. plz say out only after u had think properly..

y am i always lied by ppl ... and always ppl don trust wad i spoken .. y ?? is it im so small till u cant see me... or .. i hav no place in u guyz heart... after i receive his mail.. my heart broke.. cos now.. i've decided not to trust anyone easily as im so 'naive' = stupid...

i never have such suck CNY like 2009.. this CNY is full with hatred, tears, and shame. my mum problem haven settle.. then my sis problem occured.. those who suffer are me and my dad.. b'cos of my sis incident.. my mum slap me.. juz to release her anger and hatred. how come she did that ? since i was small.. she used to slap me juz to release her anger cos she lose money in gambling. now.. my sis da one who did wrong.. everyone hav their part of responsibility. y don she look at her problem butt juz saw others ppl ? i cant get in her mind! she is so mean.. i think.. my sis is so similar with her...they are juz da same although doesnt look alike but their thinking is so mean.. this incident is so destructive.. till spoilt me and my family relation .... i think....
i am born to get cheat , to get slap , and to get humiliated by bf , family and frenz... this is my life... haha.....

laughter that full with tears