depress

2008/10/31
depression
i'll always ask.. y am i born in this world.. if that time.. da nurse never save me.. i will never born in this world.. im juz... thats too much things happened within these months... im really tired for that.. i really cant stand anymore.. as in a nutshell.. it came again.. im juz soak in tears these ..weeks... pounds of problem in my family ... SHIT... how am i to solve.. how am i to stand . how am i to face.. how am i to help . wad can i do .. y i born in this family which others never hav.. if i hav a common family.. that will be great. every of my fren.. either new or old either schoomate or housemate.. will appreciate for their harmony and warm family after knew my family.. yes, every family will face their own problem .. y juz mine................ so so so so sos ossoss shit.... this is da worst family i think ... although not no.1 in world.. but.. is no.1 one.. among all alll alla lllll over my frenzzzzz ..among all ppl that around me.. thats more than enuff...
i've never hav a happy day since small.... ... exam is coming.. im juz doing nothing... tears evaporate ... heart.. never be there.. juz hope that. i'll never let it happen in my own family in future... i really scare this will be a horror dream that will be never end..

on da other hand.. i really fed up for my every love story ... y am i always place in btw at least 2 guys..i don wanna choose anymore.. y every that of i choose right b4 will be da wrong one in da end... guys.. cant u juz come 1 by 1 ..i don wan to be cruel or hurt anyone.. can every single part in my life juz be normal as others... i don wan special.. i juz wan to be normal .. and.. im not a good gal as u all think ... theres still thousand track of beauty clever brilliant seducive lady around the world.. juz let me down ok ? let me go .. forget me.. don be so bad taste ok ?
p/s : thanx \/\/031 cos keep help and accompany me whenever i need .. and also /=0/\/G